Since my birthday last week, I’ve been thinking about how I would prefer to live in the days and months ahead. I’m sharing a poetic prayer about learning to love our authentic selves: warts, wrinkles and all, and the life we have been given, plus some thoughts on how best to achieve it.
A prayer
Lord,
Help me to love the real me,
not the carefully curated
and cultivated persona
I might want the world
to see and believe.
Let me accept my weaknesses,
anxieties and fears,
and help me release them
all into your loving hands.
As I come to closely abide
with you, may I become
strengthened on the inside,
made right by your mercy
and grace, held, loved, kept safe.
May I appreciate your deep
generosity in giving
the same to those who labour
faithfully for you for years
or who say your Name
only on their death-bed.
When I peer into the long,
darkened corridor of my soul,
may I see your light shining
brightly as it flares in my heart
and ever beckons me Home.
Amen
In seeking to be authentic, it requires a degree of inner awareness and vigilance for us to not slip into grumbling and complaining about our circumstances, especially when we live with chronic illness and pain on a daily basis.
But if we can choose to acknowledge life’s many difficulties, while we marvel at the grace we see, and seek to magnify it more than the grittiness we’re experiencing, then I believe we can learn to become more content while remaining authentic.
“Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.” — Psalm 16:5-6 NIV
Can we echo these words and say that the boundary lines have fallen for us in pleasant places, like the psalmist did? Perhaps, if we think they really have and base our assessment on what we see, the supposedly tangible signs of blessing from God.
And maybe a slower yes if we deliberately look for the good in everything, whether intrinsically good or bad in itself. If we seek God’s hand at work within the challenges of life and let eyes of faith lead us, instead of feelings of fear or lack of trust.
Because we can experience physical limitation, sickness, disease, weakness and pain in our bodies, but our spirit doesn’t have to be (or feel) confined or constrained. It’s potentially the most youthful and freest part of us.
Through Jesus Christ we have instant access to heaven’s throne room, the most spacious place of all, and the vastness of our heavenly Father’s infinite, unconditional love, His unlimited mercy and forgiveness, and His authentic, grace-filled presence with us.
“You have not given me into the hands of the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place.” — Psalm 31:8 NIV
Nothing else quite steals our joy like ingratitude, comparison and complaining. It might hurt to lead an authentic, God-honouring life, because self-interest will have to be set aside.
It might be uncomfortable to be real with ourselves and others, but oh the relief when we discover how similar we really are! Fear, envy, comparison and FOMO will gradually slip away if we don’t feed them a diet of unrelenting social media.
And if we accept who we actually are before God, namely His precious and esteemed children who play a vital part in His Kingdom plans. Because each one of us has our own small, vital, and lovingly designated place in the scheme of things.
Our deepest reality is when we’re rooted deeply in Christ, drawing our daily sustenance and strength from Him. We will become our best, most authentic selves as we seek Holy Spirit’s help to grow in greater Christ-likeness through our dependence and faith in Him. And that’s a really freeing thing! 🙂 ❤
A beautiful narrative from the heart, Joy! I read this after completing the first week’s course readings for “Narrative Theology,” my second class for the DMin.
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Oh, how timely! Bless you, Brother, for letting me know about the “Narrative Theology” readings. How are your studies going, Michael? Are you feeling more settled in your new home and community now? ❤
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Getting back into the study habit after a couple of weeks off. Of course during that time we were moving and trying to get settled. We should close on a house here on Oct 9th. Work has been going well and we love the community!
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It sounds like you had a break for your brain but lots of busyness to contend with as well, including the forthcoming move to a new house. I’m so pleased (but not at all surprised) you’ve been warmly welcomed and received by your new community! 😉✝️🏡
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Oh Amen, Dear Joy! Here in my chair, in the corner of my sunny room, God has such grace for me. It is when I feel that I cannot lift my eyes away from the pain and up to His grace that I fall into despair. But thank God He doesn’t leave us there! I am so grateful that He finds ways to lift our eyes, even through writings such as your today. Yes, to this so much:
“And if we accept who we actually are before God, namely His precious and esteemed children who play a vital part in His Kingdom plans. Because each one of us has our own small, vital, and lovingly designated place in the scheme of things.”
Thank you for shining His light and grace for us to see, and for bringing such encouragement to us. May you feel that same encouragement today, my dear sister. Love and hugs across the pond! xoxo
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Dear Bettie, one of the things I most love about you is your heightened ability to sense God’s grace in your ordinary yet deeply challenging days. You always find a beautiful way of pointing us to the light of His presence in and through the pain. Your contribution of helping and blessing others through your honest testimony and heartfelt words is vast. And your lovely, thoughtful responses here never fail to bring encouragement to my soul. I’m so blessed by your visits and kind words, dear sister. Love and hugs across the pond to you, too! xoxo 💜
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Your prayer and reflections bring tears to my eyes and comfort to my soul, Joy. It feels like you understand some of the deep longings of my heart. And this truth I need to remember more – “And if we accept who we actually are before God, namely His precious and esteemed children who play a vital part in His Kingdom plans. Because each one of us has our own small, vital, and lovingly designated place in the scheme of things.” Thank you for encouraging my heart, my friend! Love and blessings of strength and peace for each moment!
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Oh, Trudy, how often our journeys, our deep heart yearnings and struggles coincide! While I might write about and truly believe in my beloved state before God, sometimes that message has a hard job filtering down from my head to my heart. I can more easily see its application for others than I can for myself. Having unwittingly adopted a shame-based mentality because of acts done to us in the past doesn’t help in seeing ourselves as cherished and beloved. But the truth is, we are! Let us seek to hang onto that freeing thought when feelings of not being enough try to assault our hearts. Yes, we are faltering works in progress, but oh how much God loves and values all of us! I’m delighted to hear you’ve been encouraged here, dear friend, and may the same beautiful blessing you have offered me be returned to you as well. Love and hugs! xo ❤️
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