I watch, aghast, as scenes unfurl before my eyes. It’s not a pretty sight. I don’t want to embrace this. I long to turn away because I barely recognise the woman I have become.
Life isn’t much fun when the cinema screen of your mind replays events of the last few days—at least not when it’s showing a lengthy, high-definition spool of negativity directed toward yourself.
Instead of staying hidden in my thoughts, the darkness in me had shifted to my talk. I was majoring in self-criticism, not liking the person I saw in the mirror or the life God has given her.
Gratitude had given way to grumbling. I’d forgotten to give myself the same compassion, kindness, understanding and grace I extend toward others. Have you been there? Do you ever catch yourself like this?
[bctt tweet=”We can forget how much God has forgiven us and how lavish is His love”]
Sometimes we don’t want to acknowledge our dark side, because it makes us curl away in despair. We can forget how much God has forgiven us and how lavish is His unconditional love.
We can only comprehend why Christ died for us when we accept the darkness within and our need of healing, of rescue and saving.
The darkness within and without is intended to encourage us to seek for the Light of Christ, to long for the solace, hope and joy which only God can give us.
[bctt tweet=”We can only comprehend why Christ died for us when we accept our need of healing”]
Embracing the darkness
I don’t want to embrace my dark side
I’d rather pretend it doesn’t exist, sweep
it out of sight, out of mind, hide it under
a carpet of concealment because ignorance
is purported to be bliss…
or is it really?
It’s impossible to live a half-life
where secrets and shame mingle merrily
with guilt and pain—though on the surface it seems
that nothing can perturb us…
but that’s just a lie
We’re rattled, unsettled within, stained by sin
afraid to let God’s light in, though it seeks
admittance—his laser-light of Love wants to embrace
us, consume our darkness…
with a holy hug and kiss
Christ’s embrace looks like arms flung wide, hung
on a cross, skin scarred, marred and pierced
as his blood pours out from every wounded place
It looks like mercy, forgiveness, unconditional
love, and grace flowing freely…
we can only yield—receive
[bctt tweet=”The darkness within and without is intended to encourage us to seek for the Light of Christ”]