Some decisions we make are relatively easy.
Eat the chocolate or the fruit? No worries. I’ll have both, thank you.
Have a coffee? Yes please….though preferably before lunch or it will have to be decaffeinated.
We can do a Joyce Meyer and
‘Eat the Cookie… buy the Shoes’
Other decisions rightly take a great deal of thought and time to make – new job, further study, career change, moving house, getting married, starting a family etc.
They can be literally life-changing.
When I read Holley’s God-sized dream task for this week I hesitated, struggled, paused, prayed and decided I couldn’t really do as it suggested.
Here’s the task:‘Decide what you will decrease in your life so your God-sized dream has more room to increase. What do you need to say “no” to or “not now” or “not so much” to so your dream can thrive?’ The idea was to choose one thing that fitted this criteria.
I had a heart-sink moment. My life has been pretty constrained for many years due to chronic health problems. I want to add to and increase what I do, not take away from an already limited life-style. Though, with Lent approaching, giving up something might be feasible and achievable.
Then, as I continued praying for guidance, I sensed there was something that has been such an intrinsic part of my life for years that I’d taken it for granted as normal.
Right from earliest childhood, as my parents waged verbal war against one another, as I experienced rejection, emotional neglect and abuse, it has been my tendency to absorb it all like a sponge.
I am a natural peacemaker, conciliator, arbitrator. But it has left me with an unwanted legacy. I’m also a permanently coiled spring and an adrenaline-saturated junkie by default.
My whole frame sinks under the weight of unrelieved, deep-seated tension from many years spent waiting with wearied expectation for the next disappointment, problem or disaster to strike, as it inevitably did and still does – such is life
Frequently, even in slumber as a foetal-curved comma, I am roused into wakefulness by the awareness of shoulder-hunched, jaw-clenched tightness turning me into an exclamation mark of pain suffused with waves of heat and adrenaline pouring over me.
Anticipation of ‘fire-fighting’ continual difficulties, years of swallowing down anxiety and fear while persuading myself I am dealing with it, processing things enough to keep going but not sufficient to overcome properly – all of this has become a recipe for tension to a degree that has been my undoing and urgently needs to be addressed.
So accustomed had I become to keeping a Tight Grip on myself, that I’ve been totally unaware of the cause of it, blaming my chronic health and sleep problems on the constant muscle and joint pain I experience on a daily basis. The answer went deeper.
Such appalling bad habits have taken years to develop and may take a long time to undo.
I must decrease it. It’s gradually destroying me from the inside out and adding greatly to the aches and pains of the medical conditions I suffer from, never mind the insomnia.
God doesn’t intend us to live tense, stressed-out, anxiety-ridden lives. He desires to drop His still dews of quietness and peace into the overwhelming oceans and sinking seas of our trials and tribulations.
“Peace I leave with you; My [own] peace I now give you and bequeath to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. [Stop allowing yourselves to be agitated and disturbed; and do not permit yourselves to be fearful and intimidated and cowardly and unsettled].” ~ John 14:27 – (Amplified Bible)
Yes, even now, snowed under by a fresh avalanche of problems large and small, I can learn a better way to react, a different method of responding to life’s trials. Problems are a fact of life and solutions have to be found in dealing with them satisfactorily.
“I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have (perfect) peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer (take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted)! For I have overcome the world (I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you).” ~ John 16:33 – (Amplified Bible)
I accept there is no quick-fix solution. Lasting change takes time. Various medical and alternative therapies have already been tried to varying effect. More can be explored.
This a period where I am seeking to make wise choices in every area of my life, to embrace God’s best and learn to leave behind what isn’t working for me anymore.
And such is His grace. He doesn’t want any of us to live our lives imprisoned by tension, fear, anxiety or anything else.
Jesus died to set us free from those things that are detrimental to our complete mental, emotional, physical and spiritual health and well-being.
I choose to express this problem publicly in the hope of just one other person being helped by it.
I choose to pursue a pathway of peace and tranquillity, no matter how long it takes.
I choose to seek further medical help and support if necessary.
I choose life-enhancing activities to relax and refresh me.
I choose to let go and let God.
I choose to live a Holy Spirit fuelled and filled life.
Over to you:
How are you dealing with unresolved stress and tension in your life?
Please feel free to share what is helping you to relax and be at peace.
In this post I am linking up with Holley Gerth and the God-sized dream team as we seek to discover God’s best for our lives this year.
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Great post. I also carry tension etc. I carry most of it in my shoulders and my muscles there are totally knotted. Yesterday I remembered the meditation tapes I have. One of my favourites is by Liz Babbs(www.lizbabbs.com) and is called 'A quiet place'. I find it really helpful in letting go and allow Jesus to fill me with His love. Now if I did that more often I would be a much less stressed person! I was wondering what to give up for Lent. Maybe I will give up computer games (bad habit) and spend time meditating on God's Word instead?
Yes, they are the areas I mainly feel it too. The M.E and Fibromyalgia started with neck and shoulder pains. Meditation tapes/CDs are a brilliant resource. Although I have a Liz Babbs one as well, I rarely remember to use it. So pleased you have reminded me! Our 'decrease' or 'give up' choices are best when suited to our own needs. Your idea sounds eminently sensible, though my OH plays computer games for the purpose of stress relief! Each to their own. Thank you, Lynda, for the sympathy, suggestions and support. I appreciate your lovely comments :)xx
Praying you find rest in Him!
Thank you, Tami. That is so kind of you. A needful prayer I really appreciate right now! Bless you :)xx
Joy, what a beautiful person and writer you are! Thank you for sharing your heart. As I read your post I felt like I was reading about me — "I am a natural peacemaker, conciliator, arbitrator. But it has left me with an unwanted legacy. I'm also a permanently coiled spring and an adrenaline-saturated junkie by default. My whole frame sinks under the weight of unrelieved, deep-seated tension from many years spent waiting with wearied expectation for the next disappointment, problem or disaster to strike, as it inevitably did and still does – such is life." Even when we don't consciously wait for disaster to strike, our bodies don't seem to know it. It seemed I used to do "everything", but now, my body becomes overwhelmed if I am around too many people too long or if I try to do even 5 minutes over what my body says is too much. And then, it never fully recovers. However, I can now feel God's peace again in my life, which seemed to elude me for a time. God bless you. We can continue to seek His peace and direction in this journey together. I'm so glad I met you.
Hi Deborah. I am awed and humbled by your lovely comments and by the fact that you understand and know what this is like for yourself. You may be that one person I was praying would be touched by this post. God is so good! Sorry to hear of your physical struggles. It makes a huge difference if we can have peace and an awareness of God's healing Presence. I'm so glad we have connected too and I pray that you will continue to be blessed by peace and ease. In your weakness may He be strong and give you hope to carry on when things are painful. Love and blessings :)xx
Thanks for this post Joy – really needed it today, particularly as God has been speaking to me about resting more!
Hi Wendy. Thank you for your kind comment. I'm so pleased this resonated with you. Sometimes we can feel so alone with our problems. I share my struggles in the hope that others may be helped as they hear how God is helping me live as an Overcomer. Blessings as you rest in God's loving embrace 🙂 xx
Have empathy with so much of what you've written, similar personality types? I'm trying to rest more and also be disciplined over meds/physio etc.
You never know, Mandy, we are sisters in the faith anyway! Tension can creep up on us so easily and be hard to deal with. But we gradually learn what helps and what hinders. Praying that you will have patience and be at peace as you institute measures to help you rest and relax. He will strengthen you to do it, my friend. :)xx